A Ritual to Feel
We have a potent New Moon in front of us and thanks to Cancer’s emotionally-focused power, we will be feeling the whole rainbow of emotions. If harnessed correctly, we will be able to move through these emotions and not get stuck in the most painful ones.
Over the last week my body has felt relaxed, strong and healthy. I’ve added bike riding into my daily quest for movement. I’ve had a wonderful week of early morning bike rides with the birds. I live in the neighborhood I grew up in and every day pass by homes I’ve known for decades being torn down, to be replaced by giant modern houses. None of these match my beautiful neighborhood. Some of the older homes I admire actually look as if they are part of the natural landscape, as if they were built to blend in with the surroundings. They may not have looked like the house next door to them, but they were clearly designed with their environment in mind. They seem to be to be odes to the beauty of the landscape of our city; the water, the mountains, and the spirit. Some of the new houses seem horrendous, imposing on, not reflecting, the beauty around them, blocking out views that previously belonged to everyone. They look like giant boxes built with little interest or concern for those that have to live near them; built so high, so fast and so cheaply that some that have been up for only a year are starting to show the effects of the months of rain this city endures. There are cracks beginning to show and seams suddenly appearing along with the realization that it may have been built without care. And now we have to endure this ugly beast for many years to come.
I’ve been feeling the rainbow of emotions as I watch these lifecycles appear. This city I once loved is changing. This country I once loved is changing. This world I once loved is changing. This life I once loved is changing.
I’ve been feeling all the emotions at once as I bike around my neighborhood. My evening rides usually include my father. We haven’t ridden bikes together since I was a kid but as my father ages, I accept the need to keep him moving. We ride around the park he grew up sneaking into as a kid because it was an army base. He points out buildings and fields and tells me stories of his boyhood. The Dragonflies hover overhead, almost as if they are listening. We glide along paths at dusk talking about how much fun the new electric bikes are, and I realize there are whole other memories that come up when I ride at night for me. It’s less about where exactly we are and what we are doing and more about memories stored deep within my cells.
I have memories of a childhood spent between the East Coast and West Coast, including memories of bike rides taken in cow fields during my weekend adventures at the country home my step-dad had on Civil War battlegrounds in Virginia. These are magical memories of spending time with someone that was truly an angel put in my life to help me. So, many feelings all are swelling up this week but I’m trying – as you should – to not get caught up in them. They are beautiful, sad, funny, whimsical memories and they are all wonderful. The thing we want to realize is that this New Moon Solar Eclipse will present multi-dimensional events and we want to be aware of this and learn to process and work through them. The good ones and the more challenging ones. We want to feel all the emotions associated with this New Moon but not get stuck on one specific part of it.
It may be easier said than done because this New Moon is so emotionally-charged. What feels good will really feel good and what feel like discomfort, will feel like a stone in your shoe. If we can focus on just allowing the emotions to come up, identify, feel and then release them, we can then harness the energy of this New Moon. Let’s use this energy to process and let go so that we can make room to keep moving forward. The one thing we don’t want with this New Moon is to let ourselves get stuck on any one emotion. Cancer sign events are meant to remind us that we are here to feel things and to remember to have empathy towards others. Crabs bite but they also feed us.
One thing I am personally doing this week is giving myself a lot of space. I’ve cut down on my plans and my social media use. I’ve been leaving the phone on another floor. I’ve been listening to recorded sounds of nature or instrumental classical music. I’m treating this week like a stay-cation. Surrounded by comfort items and movement. I’ve been reading, writing, walking and cleaning but with no urgency attached. If I desire a scoop of locally-made ice cream, I’m taking myself out for one. If I desire a mid-day three mile walk. I’m doing it. I’m giving myself what I need during this New Moon ramp up.
A Ritual to Feel
This one is simple. Feel the emotions this week. Identify them. Talk to them if needed. Then, let them go on their way. Our reality is in this present moment. And if we can keep ourselves in the present moment, we can learn balance. We can learn peace. We can learn about life and death.
Though this city is changing, it’s still part of my journey.
Though our Country is struggling, it is part of our journey.
Though we maybe scared right now, it is part of our journey.
Let’s move through the emotions so that we can feel everything.
Though this city is changing, I wouldn’t want to be any place else.
Though this country is struggling, I have hope for the future.
Though I maybe scared, if I focus on the present, I realize my natural state is peace.
Take time this week to just allow; allow there to be room for fun, for cleaning, for cooking, for movement. Allow yourself the space to feel the emotions and allow yourself to have moments where you just relax and give yourself a break from feeling. Allow for space this week so that you are not part of someone’s drama, pain or struggle. Allow for yourself to process your own emotions so you are not giving them to others to work on. Allow for yourself to be human this week; working through the bad times so you can appreciate the good ones.