Truths are bubbling up as we sort through this New Moon/Solar Eclipse energy; all types and all levels of truths. It’s like going back in time, waking up to places in our lives where we went off our path (or thought we did) and returning to that moment to find the “correct” path this time. It’s disorienting, but it is necessary. We need to go back to a point in our lives when we were on our spirit path. For some, this will be painful because they will need to heal inside of them what is causing the hate, the fear, and the unrest. For others this will be a return to the lighter, more creative and authentic journey. It’s a journey we are all taking together so let’s approach it with an open heart. And, importantly, let’s accept lovingly that many of the experiences we’ve had since this earlier time will stay with us as we return; in the form of wisdom and well-earned rewards.
As it winds down, I acknowledge how grateful I am for this summer. I am in-between jobs at the moment which means my summer has been spent slowing down and healing. It has also meant that, for the first time in years, I have been able to garden and be outside during the days. Usually the summer blows by in a haze of industry conferences and conventions. The lifecycle of projects went from a break in-between events to a nonstop race from one event to another; another conference, convention, or product launch. It never ended. And then suddenly I am given an opportunity to slow down, and take stock in my life - where I am and if I happy. It has not been a totally cloudless summer; I have hit many, many lows, detours and gone down some false paths. I have been bloodied and bruised in the process but I can safely say I am starting to see the path again. I am returning to a time where my life was simple. My dreams for the future involved a simple life of being a magical lady that lived in a small house in the woods. I am tackling the obsession with money, job titles and tech connections and starting to realize, this is not a part of my authentic self. I am able to notice that for the first time ever dragonflies and hummingbirds are coming to my yard. I feel the change in season and notice the subtle change in the garden and I realize this is how I want to live my life. I want to be present for my friends, my clients and my magic. I am done getting caught up in the rat race that has no roots in authenticity. I will no longer take part in it. I am returning to the vision of my life I had when I was in middle school and high school. The vision of helping people and living simply.
Are there any places in your life where the veil has become so thin that you have some insight into what needs to change? Have you noticed places where you might not be as authentic as you wish you were? Or maybe you noticed that you are strictly living by ego and it’s time to change.
Being the authentic version of ourselves can be a hard journey. It means letting go of the ego, releasing the stories about ourselves we were told and embracing what we have always wanted to embrace. Our new story, our new self is that person genuinely content to be living the life they have always wanted, the person that is able to help others because they genuinely want to and because they realize we are all connected and we all need to feel safe, free and be able to be our authentic selves. It’s about not letting our culture or a few in our society tell us that we are not good enough, not rich enough, or not smart enough. Our authentic selves want to feel welcomed into our world. Let’s welcome them home.
Ritual for Returning to Your Authentic Self
For this ritual, we are going to do a Dream Board collage. Find images that remind you of what you envisioned for yourself when you were younger, before cultural pressures and the ego took over. You can create a poster board for this project or just put it into your journal. We want to find images that make our heart leap with excitement, love and appreciation of who we are; our authentic selves. If you would rather write then write about what you used to dream your life would look like. Where did you live? What did your days used to look like? What did your life look like? We want to return to a time in our lives when our dreams were right in front of us, clear and vivid. There we will find clues about how to bring our authentic selves back.
I learned a lot as a result of this eclipse. I am now being kinder towards myself. I am being more loving to myself and realizing that I need to honor myself and my feelings more. I am slowing down life and becoming more present to what it is that I want in life and what I don’t need. I am starting to see where my anxiety took over in my early 20s and never stopped. I am starting to forgive myself and my body. I am healing and returning to my vision of what would make me happy in this life. Magic, friends, gardens, writing and helping people. I have returned to this dream by writing out what I used to envision, by cutting out images that make me happy and by slowing way down so I can dream again.
What does your authentic life look like? Not the one you want to portray on social media but the life where you laugh, smile and feel like you are living your dream?