Finding What Lights You Up
This New Moon is in Gemini and it is so perfectly in the Gemini model. There are chapters, parts, and a sequence to this new moon. And knowing the character of Gemini, there will be choices.
This week we are facing our shadows, our egos and asking ourselves if we are living from an ego place or are we living in Spirit? This week we are given choices. This week things can start to lighten up and release. This week we get to decide.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my current situation, my life, and my future. All year I have been wrestling with questions of what is my dream life, what is my dream job, and which drives which? I have been evaluating almost every part of my life to understand how it fits into the dream. I have been studying and scrutinizing elements of my life; my work life and my interior life, constantly asking myself what parts are authentic and what parts are built on ego. What I came to realize is that that I’m not sure I could answer yes to the question of authenticity.
I have come to believe lately that some of my dreams are motivated by my ego. It seems like it is my own odd version of ‘Keeping up with the Joneses’. I have not lived a traditional life and perhaps the desire to live one caused me to have dreams - created from ego – to match my life and dreams with those mythical Joneses. My Spirit has been trying to whisper to me all these years. Small signs were there, but did not always make sense. Suddenly as this New Moon energy starts to build, I can start to see them for what they were and are. I can also understand why choices were made the way they were at the time because I can see how the ego overrode the Spirit. Spirit choices are choices without “should”, “need tos”, “have tos” or other people’s stories. Spirit choices are based in true spirit happiness which is unique to everyone.
When we are questioning our decisions, our life path, our way of thinking, this is when we start to have magical choices.
Is that dream job truly your dream job or is it based on the version of your life that your ego has dictated? Does the life you are living truly make you happy or is it based on what you think you should be doing? Or maybe what your family thinks is right for you? Is that relationship right for your spirit or is it an ego-based struggle for control and dominance and something you should walk away from? These are the kinds of questions this New Moon will bring up.
This is where the work gets fun because we start to see choices. We can choose to go back to school, we can choose to leave the unhealthy relationship in favor of our own happiness, we can choose to make choices that bring Spirit Happiness slowly or suddenly back into our lives. We are being given a feeling of hope this New Moon; hope that we will start making choices that bring happiness and love into our lives, hope that we are not stuck, and hope that old dogs can learn new tricks.
Ritual for Finding What Lights You Up
This week we want our Spirit to sparkle. We want to make a list of 20 things that makes us sparkle. Deep Spirit Sparkle. Let’s try to do 5 of them. They can be as simple as brand new linen on the bed, a nice cup of tea in the morning instead of coffee, a date with our best friend or an afternoon spent with our lover, naked and relaxed. We have choices this week to continue just watching TV at night or to take a hot rose oil bath and sit outside listening to nature. The moon will be dark this week so let’s sit outside and watch the stars sparkle. Let’s learn from them about how big this Universe is and how little we know about it or ourselves. Let’s decide this week to let in some Magic and that the Magic will bring hope and choices.
Write all of this down in your journal as well as on a piece of paper you will keep with you all week. What makes you sparkle? What do you want more of in your life? What choices do you want to start making to change your life into something better?
After the New Moon, let’s burn the list to release it to the Universe. Let’s call in more of these juicy experiences. Let’s create real change in our lives.