Unpacking your Desires
I am calling this the Week of Unpacking energy. We will have insights coming to us this week that will feel like you are unpacking your hopes and fears along with unpacking your dreams at the same time. There can be a rollercoaster of emotions with these insights. Are we ready to embrace our new dreams, even if it means things like working hard, possible big changes, small changes, endings and new beginnings? Sometimes change is easy and natural, sometimes it can be hard.
I became ill this week and it was scary enough that I was forced to take stock of my life. Am I truly where I want to be? The answer is, I don’t know. I have noticed some new dreams coming up lately that would require some big changes and I am not sure I am strong enough to make them. I spent a good deal of time this week Unpacking my fears. Has my life been the failure that at times I think it is or am I simply too hard on myself? I have, and have had, so many adventures, experiences and amazing people in my life. Will I ever see myself as they see me? I have been unpacking my fear of growing older and realizing that the last ten years have flown by. I started this decade bed-ridden with a spine illness and this week I felt like it was going to end in the same way. How can I honor myself and create a life where I can feel ease in my body and in my life?
What does Ease look like in your life?
This is something I have been asking myself and my clients lately. What does ease look like? Is it being able to wake up without an alarm one extra day a week? Does it look like a career path where your natural strengths are used, not your weaknesses? Does it look like a loving relationship with someone that is emotionally available? Does it look like a month-long adventure where you can relax and breathe? Can you name some things that would bring ease into your life? This feels like a question where you could just name off standard answers and be done with it but if you dig deeper and ask yourself the question while thinking about this idea that we are unpacking our fears and desires, can you name some things that would bring ease in your life, what would they be?
I believe that, for me, ease would take the form of self-confidence and self-love. I am facing my fears about desiring change that is big and feels risky and I am not doing it in a graceful manner. I am allowing my fears to cloud my vision. Ease would manifest as reminders of how many things I have accomplished in my life. When I set goals, I pretty much reach them; like starting and running not one business in my life but two of them. I have manifested dream jobs in terms of titles and responsibilities. I have a wonderful community of smart, talented and beautiful women that I get to support and be amazed by. I have good friends that make me laugh and remind me that close friends really are more family than friends. There are men in my life that make me feel like I sparkle and help to remind me that I am worthy and deserving. Why do I let negative thoughts cloud my truth? Ease looks like gentle reminders that I am human and I still have time in my life to keep realizing my dreams.
Ritual for Unpacking
Let’s go for a walk to think about this idea of unpacking those ideas or beliefs about ourselves that are blocking us. What is the name of this fear? Is it procrastination based in fear? Is it stubbornness born out of fear? Is it low self-esteem that is allowed to survive because of fear?
In your journal start to unpack this fear and outline what you can do to help bring ease into your life and face this fear. Would acceptance, radical self-love, self-care and support help you take the next step? Would realizing that your current life is based in the energy of your ego help you to let go and bring forward more authentic goals. Where are you ready to start living?
Start to unpack these realizations because we want to keep exploring our dreams this year and get clear on what we desire in life.