New Moon Eclipse in Pisces - Ritual to Commit
This weekend I took a long drive to clear my creative block and try to make sense of the energy I have felt coming in. As I drove down a two-lane highway lined with large trees through which I could see water, I felt the giant shift that is coming. This New Moon is the last of the Virgo-Pisces eclipses that started in 2015. I slowly came to the realization that this eclipse is the last push in a monumental change in all of our lives. This eclipse is happening in Pisces it is requiring us to commit, to make a declaration that we are ready to shed obstacles and move forward. We must leave the old ways behind and move forward.
I have always been afraid to commit to anything. Lovers, partners, jobs, school, even friends. I feared commitment like it was the plague. I felt like if I committed to something that I would be unable to go towards my dreams. But after the great losses of 2016 and the intense discomfort of 2015, I am realizing that 2017 is asking for me to finally commit to something. It’s asking to not just intend for something to happen but to put all our attention towards committing to it.
This commitment energy is different. It is not a painfully heavy anchor forcing us to live on one path forever. This energy is asking us to join it in a lifelong relationship that will allow our blocks, our biggest fears to be tackled and cleared. It’s the kind of commitment energy that will change our lives and will help to change our community. It requires a lot of letting go of the big stuff since it is hitting Pisces, the last sign of the Zodiac. Our communities can’t survive in the old paradigm anymore. Are you ready to help bring about change? Our fear must no longer hold us back; we must move forward. Are you ready to face your fears?
As I drove through the woods I thought about how fear of commitment was the greatest driver in my life. It seems as if every important decision I have made up until this point has been how to live without commitment. Sure, I have been in long relationships and was able to remain faithful. But I could never truly commit to the other person. My dreams and desires in life were ignored and became transparent when I was in these relationships. I was placed in a role of girlfriend, supporter, and organizer. I did not feel I was seen as a person that had dreams, interests, talents or skills. I have begun to realize I am guilty of not committing to myself. In these situations, it was me that not only could not commit to the relationship, I could not be trusted to commit to myself.
But with this New Moon and Eclipse, with where my life is at the moment, with where my dreams are. I am ready to commit. I am ready to admit that I want to settle into this place, into this job, into this exploration of my talents. I made some commitments to myself regarding my life as I drove to Oregon this weekend. These were true commitments around shedding and more importantly around doing things differently. I am committed to doing things differently now. I am ready for my love of things to be my main driver in life, not my fear. I am ready to be able to integrate my dreams with all the parts of my life: my amazing job in the video game industry, my spiritual side, my relationships with men, my friendships and relationships with the amazing community of women in my life, my family, my neighborhood and my commitment to those that need help in life, my company. I am ready for all these parts to show up in my interactions with people because I am committed to myself and my life.
Ritual to Commit
Light a candle and breathe.
Now make two lists. The first one is a list of everything you are ready to shed. All the painful places in your life. Be strong and honest in your part of this list. Write down those things that you need to shed but also those that make you queasy or uncomfortable. We want to get it all out.
Drink some water, tea, or wine and breathe.
Now make a list of all the places where you are ready to commit. I am ready to commit to my job. This is the first time I have ever been able to say that. I am ready to commit to my community. I am ready to commit to my writing, my products and my creative side. Yes to more road trips! I am ready to commit to love and partnership. It is possible to be with someone that makes you stronger in your dreams and life. It is possible to find someone that will support you as much as you support them. I am ready to commit to my health and my body. I am ready to commit to myself.
Tear up the “shed” list and release it in water. This could be a lake, stream, the ocean or your toilet. Let it go with Pisces energy. Pay attention to your dreams and your intuition. The veil will be thin this week. Do not let this energy overwhelm you. Just dream of swimming or floating in water. Allow the emotions and energy of the week to be like water. Just let it go.
Keep your commitment list in your journal. You might not get to these commitments all at once or even this year. But we are using this New Moon to commit to the rest of our lives so we want to keep this record.