Scorpio New Moon Ritual
I’ve been thinking a lot about vulnerability lately - vulnerability and truth mixed in with a whole lot of deep healing. The New Moon is in Scorpio this month and with that we find the truth can sting but it needs to come up and out so we can finally heal. Of course being a Scorpio New Moon, it’s not without some drama.
I am speaking my truth lately in a way that is life-changing. I am working on being confident enough to tell someone how I feel. This concept of course triggers my childhood fear of abandonment to an insane level and it’s been shaking up relationships all around me. But there is a beauty to this experience in that I am feeling stronger every day in my life and in my truth. I no longer default to critical or negative comments about myself. Instead I am starting to feel worthy of having people in my life that care enough about me to stay and communicate with me. This is worth all the pain of these experiences.
I was having tea with a girlfriend the other day and telling her about my latest misstep. Of course, she didn’t think it was a misstep at all. This friend is gorgeous in every way, physically beautiful, successful business owner and, on top of that, a great friend. In so many ways she is the sister we all want. The sister that will invite you over for tea when you are having an anxiety attack and be so loving that you leave her house feeling stronger and more human because she helped you to realize that wanting people in your life that are strong enough to work through problems and actually communicate is a form of self-care and love. It is not crazy to want to be heard and have the other person care enough to want to work through things with you. Communication is not bad. Disregarding another person’s feelings is the sting that needs to stop.
But there is beauty to this season as well. We need to clean out wounds, let them dry like the leaves and heal from them. We need this season as it is; a natural life progression. We need to face our wounds, our truths and how we are changing and love ourselves even more. I wish they taught emotional intelligence to children so that humans could learn how to allow each other to express themselves without taking it personally. Sometimes we just need to express how we feel, be heard and not be punished for it. This is what my friend taught me the other day. She has had equally difficult conversations with people in her life, and instead of fear of abandonment, she expects the other person to communicate and help heal the journey they are on together. She expects the other person to care enough to help her heal and she is there when the other person needs to heal. It was life changing to hear someone talk about feelings without having as much fear attached to them as I do. What if we could all hear each other’s wounds and feelings and instead of running, we stayed and helped them heal? We recognized how hard it was for the other person to be so vulnerable and we admitted it. We saw strength in vulnerability instead of shame. We saw vulnerability as currency towards healing and we treated it like the sacred exchange it is.
What are your truths that need to come out to heal the deep childhood wounds you are carrying? What are your fears around speaking these truths? Why have they been locked up for so long? What would happen if you decided to speak these truths instead of trying to please people while ignoring your own needs?
Part of my intention of being SEEN this year turns out to not only benefit from the positive aspects of attention but to also realize the parts of me that need to be seen by myself. The wounds I have been carrying around for years that are blocking me from moving forward. The emotions that need to get out for me to move forward. It has not been an easy process. I learned early to be scared of admitting any other feeling but strength and being fine. I became afraid that if I spoke my truth, people would leave. So I stopped telling those closest to me how I was feeling other than fine and I was forgiving. Even at the cost of my own truth which was, I was hurt and needed to know that someone cared. As I work to uncover these wounds, I find myself wanting a different end-result than my fear would lead me to believe will happen. It’s a journey, for sure. I have people leaving and yet, I have these amazing people sticking around. I have people in my life that can hear me and understand my feelings and help me to heal so that I can grow and move forward. I am letting go of people that fit into my pattern of fear and I am embracing a new world where being vulnerable is a strength and something I should not be afraid of.
Let’s use this New Moon to get our emotional needs identified as well as our fears. If you are like me and fear telling your truth because people will leave, then ask yourself, are they really worth being in your life? What if you could call in people that not only would hear your truth, but would want to help you heal so you can grow and move on? Let’s use this New Moon to call in more compassion without manipulation in our interactions. Let’s heal our wounds so we are not carrying them forward.
There’s a dark side to this New Moon which can manifest in using manipulation to get our emotional needs met while hurting others in the process. Healing can come at a cost when it is from a selfish angle with no intention of owning the pain we might have caused in the process. Communication and clean thoughts are the way to understand when you are pushing for your own agenda over what another person is also feeling. Life is a series of interactions. We need to have this back and forth energy to function. If we deny someone this, we are crippling them and ignoring the bigger issue. We are also hurting ourselves in the long run. It’s ok to feel both sides, we just need to be aware of how wanting to speak our truths also includes the fact we need to hear what others have to say. We need this discourse to grow.
Ritual for Speaking Our Truth - Ritual for Healing
Let’s use the water energy of this New Moon to help wash away these blocks. Either take a bath, walk near some water or walk in the rain. Imagine the water taking away your fears. If you knew you were strong enough to hear your own truth, what would it be? When you are ready, write what came up in your journal. What needs to heal so you can move forward? Where are you ready to change so that you can move forward? What do you want to call in to help you heal? More loving people? Someone that can hold the space for you while you admit your truth? A new therapist to help you learn how to communicate more clearly? A partner that will not only hear your pain but also be the kind of person that in the future will care enough about you to want to help you heal even if you are no longer together? We all deserve to heal and to be heard.
On another piece of paper, write down what you want to call in for this New Moon. What healing do you need? Place a glass of water on top of the paper and imagine the water absorbing your intentions. All this loving and healing energy and intention will flow into this glass of water. Once you feel the water has taken on everything you want it to take, drink the water. Imagine these intentions filling you with love and helping to heal your energy, your wounds and your spirit.
We are ready for a more compassionate and loving community. We are ready to be heard and to be able to hear others. We are ready to see these child wounds, to clean them out and allow them to heal.