I’m starting to question a lot about of what I know or thought I knew. For me this last year has been exactly like being stuck in the breaks at the ocean, when you only get to the surface long enough to gasp air before being tossed under the waves and rolled around again. I now realize that what I was being tossed around in were all the questions that I never thought I would need or want to ask but now I am up for air and in a place where I can start to shift through the questions.
This Full Moon is in Aries and ready to question leadership in all its forms; leadership in our own lives, leadership in our communities and leadership in our country. How does a good leader behave and how do they show what they care about? These are the questions we are asking this Full Moon. Are there times and instances where you thought you knew what leadership looked like only to realize it was a façade? Are there now situations where you are ready to step into your own leadership role? Is the Universe whispering to you to become a leader? Are you truly ready to question what you think leadership looks like and change your expectations about leading?
For me, the questions around leadership are showing up in every area of my life. From my health, to questioning our consumer-based society, to faith in our government and leaders to do the right thing. Foundational beliefs getting cracks and feeling tremors where I least expected them.
The personal manifestation of leadership has to start with how we treat, govern if you will, our own bodies. We are not completely in control, that’s a fact, but the nurturing, the awareness, and the conscious treatment of issues that arise – those are the places we must take leadership, responsibility for our own health.
I recently had two large, benign, tumors removed from my body. I fought this illness for years, but was leading my life in the wrong direction, putting a job, others and money before my own health. I struggled in each of these areas because I was so afraid to slow down and take care of myself. I was focused on doing what I thought was right for me. Finally, I was so sick that there was nothing left for me to do but to learn and practice new leadership skills in my own life. It’s a new way of viewing the world where the intangible is put before the intangible. Now I have helped myself so that I can help others.
I feel lucky to be alive. Now, my body needs to adjust on so many different levels. I have to balance out hormones and energy levels to a new normal. And I have to rest to let my body do this which means a new way of life. I have to reject that self-care is unnecessary and selfish. And I have to accept that my path no longer includes being a mother, but rather is a different path but equally important; helping to heal the earth and the community of fellow humans.
Making changes in how I need and want to lead my body back to health has made me scrutinize leadership on national levels as well.
It is obvious that there is a great struggle going on in our national body; a conflict between the health of the country, represented by compassion and social justice, and the illness that is greed and prejudice. Where did this lack of empathy, this Darwinian approach to fellow-human beings, come from?
This struggle of values shows up in our working world where people are asked to spend more time at work than they spend with their families, people are asked to miss out on important events in their lives and threatened with termination if they don't follow the rules that were made by corporations.
In addition to being leaders of our own health and spiritual//magical journey through life, it is now evident that our country is in need of a different leadership focus.
Full Moon in Aries Ritual
You are your own leader.
What does this statement look like in your own life? Is it true and a reality or is it new and scary? How can you learn leadership skills to improve not just your own life but everyone’s life? Can you lead in a way that helps others and strengthens empathy in our world? Can you help teach empathy to those that need to learn so we can be free to love and help each other again? Can you take care of your needs so you are strong enough to lead? Let’s spend some time writing about this in our journal. What does this new form of personal leadership look like? We already know what it does not look like. We want to release the old and call in the new for this Full Moon.
Let’s release the leadership that tells us one gender is superior, that wealth is our only god, that youth, beauty and a perfect body is our currency and that profits are more important than people. Let’s release the voices of this leadership that tell us our health is less important than their bottom line, that everyone is replaceable and that we must conform and consume to be accepted by society. Let’s release this toxic mindset.
I know things are changing. While the struggle with the old ways isn’t over, we should envision what life can be when we face our fears and no longer let them hold us back? When we know and truly believe that we are loved and supported and that we, in turn, can love and support each other. What happens when we allow natural talent and kindness to be our currency and we reward for it? What if we realized that our planet is very small and yet so large at the same time and we looked at it with love and acceptance? What if we cared for ourselves and each other as much the corporations and companies that hold all the wealth care for themselves? What if rejecting these leadership styles meant our world would become a better place?
For this ritual let’s also think about, watch or read some of the Harry Potter stories. We want to realize – at our heart’s core – that we all have the strength and power to do the right thing. We will not let the Death Eaters take over. We will work to live in a world where doing the right thing is the first thing that occurs to you to do.
Light a candle for this world and say a prayer. Ask that love, empathy and kindness strengthen in the world and in ourselves and ask further that we shed the old and damaged way of being. Once you are ready, blow the candle out. Let go of the fear of the darkness and embrace a world where we can all be safe, loved and secure.