The only word I have for this New Moon in Libra is Transformation.
We must transform fear into action.
We must transform loneliness into love.
We must transform ugliness into beauty.
The only word I have for this New Moon in Libra is Transformation.
We must transform fear into action.
We must transform loneliness into love.
We must transform ugliness into beauty.
The Full Moon in Aries
The Full Moon in Aries energy is already stepping forward. This Full Moon energy allows us to feel like exploring the outdoors, the sights and sounds of nature while also examining larger questions within ourselves. It is strong energy and gives us a lovely question to answer, will you accept ‘Explorer’ energy into your world?
This question is easier to ask than to answer.
I slumped into the chair and declared to my therapist that I was “franky”.
As soon as I said this made-up word, I froze. I was embarrassed that I had just spoken a word that didn’t seem to make any sense but at the same time I was able to see that it made complete sense. The energy swirling around me lately can be summed up as a combination of “Frustrated” and “Cranky.” It’s two different, but related, energies that have been prominent in my life lately. I explained that I was trying to say these two words at once and so, franky made complete sense. What I mean is that yes, in the larger scheme of things, I am better physically, but I’m also not better. I’m facing a future that has many unknowns at the moment and yet, at the same time, I have a strong desire to keep seeing how much better I can create things in my life.
While reflecting on this word over the course of the following few days, I also accidently stepped into a whole field of magic. Because I am working to create a better life, I walk five miles a day or more, five being an easy day for me. I spend a lot of time outside and in nature. I was chatting with a friend in the midst of feeling franky and told her about how I had found a four-leaf clover the other day. I told her that I find them often but probably not every day. It’s just something I can do. I told her I would send her four-leaf clover energy so she could find one. Over the next several days, I found a four-leaf clover every day. I wasn’t trying to create magic by this conversation. I just stayed strong in my knowledge that I tend to find them. It’s just something I do, and repeatedly, they kept appearing. Not just actual plants but also the symbol. It’s gotten to the point where I have now decided to stop looking down because I don’t want to add expectations onto this gift. I just want to explore the energy of it. I want to explore my magic.
What does it mean when I accept parts of me that seem silly or non-traditional? What does it mean when I accept that I am unique and magical? Big questions to investigate and explore.
That’s what this Full Moon is asking us to do; explore those parts of us, even if it means exploring the depths of our soul. You could make it a game or an adventure. You can make it whatever you want it to be, just embrace it. Don’t deny possible happiness and don’t turn away from the Explorer energy because it could mean something you are doing right now might end. Rather, welcome the notion that we are being given some time and space to embrace and familiarize our Explorer energy to help us move toward our next adventure - internally and externally.
This energy has also inspired me to look at my life in a new way. If I am physically well enough to walk daily, is it possible for me to add something new without crashing again? And, if so, what can I handle knowing I am not 100%. I picked writing. I could commit to having a daily writing schedule along with my daily walks. It may be something very small but since I deal in micro units of time at this point in my recovery, it felt achievable. I cleaned out a corner of my room and set up my writing desk. I’ve been exploring not just writing but reading, comfort, magic and beauty. I sit down to write but I’ve also given myself permission to explore. Sometimes I can easily write pages, some days I need a break and want to explore new things to stimulate my writing. I have committed to the exploration of healing sufficiently enough to add love back into my world.
What is ahead for you? What do you want to explore during this Full Moon that will help inspire you? What areas of your life could use some creativity and fun? How ready are you to start finding four leaf clovers?
Explorer energy is the antidote to the franky feeling. It’s this energy that will help guide you to your next step. It’s the energy of allowing yourself to believe that life can and will change. It’s asking yourself, what do you want to see on your walks? Do you want a life where the scenery never changes and becomes dull because you’ve given up? OR are you ready to start noticing four leaf clovers on your walk? Are you ready to explore parts of yourself ready to be loved? Are you ready to explorer a new career, home, or relationship? Are you ready to plan that big adventure of helping to build homes for those in need? Are you ready to explore forgiving someone so you can move forward? Where are you ready to explore?
A Ritual for Being Franky
Make a cup of tea. We will use it as our natural timer.
Carve out a little spot in your home that can be just yours for this Ritual. Set it up with your journal and anything else you want close by. It could be flowers, a tarot deck or a photo. Play music that relaxes and inspires you. I’ve been listening to the beautiful new album by Elijah Bisbee called Isolation. Pick something that soothes you. Bring that cup of tea to your spot.
Now write about what explorer energy means to you. Drink the cup of tea while you do this. Handle the tarot deck, hold the flowers, and study the photo. Do whatever you need to do while you write and drink your cup of team. I don’t want you to leave this project until that cup of tea has been drunk. Somedays a cup of tea can be finished in a few minutes, some days, it takes all day. Give yourself permission to let the Universe decide the length of this Ritual. I just want you to focus on exploring and what it means to you.
This could include adding images to your journal of adventures you would like to take with someone you love. Is it a beautiful trip to Paris, a walking adventure of Scotland, or the beaches of Greece? Where do you want to go with this person? Where do you want to explore?
Maybe you are ready to explore what it would be like to become fully independent in your life; leave relationships where you feel weak or dependent? Write down what it would feel like to let go of the old stories and to explore and create new ones.
Have fun with this Ritual. Make it an adventure. Invite this explorer energy in and be with it like you would be with a toddler when the whole world was fun to explore. Something as simple as a snail in a shell became this magical creature that you loved tracking in your yard. Where did the snail go? You would ask out loud as you played. Allow this energy to seep into your world this week so you can avoid being franky. Let out the inner child in you to embrace this Aries Full Moon and all it’s explorer energy.
Once your cup of tea is done and you are ready to finish, thank the Universe for providing this energy to you and give yourself permission to explore and have fun.
Embrace your explorer energy for this Aries Full Moon. What adventures are calling you? Where will you go?
New Moon in Virgo
As I stood on top of the Mountain last week and celebrated my birthday, I had one strong common thought, this Virgo New Moon was going to be a powerful one for me, personally. Virgo’s are all about health and organization. Two things that this Virgo is not good at. I don’t know if it’s the end of the Saturn in Retrograde that has me so deep into these New Moon feelings or if it is just that the New Moon energy is hitting me hard, but I’ve been faced with a lot of body and health feelings and emotions lately.
Last year at this time I had two large tumors. I was lucky that they turned out to be non-cancerous, but I have still suffered from the experience. I didn’t talk much about it because not only did I have these tumors, my nervous system also decided to get so overwhelmed that it practically shut down. I couldn’t be around noise, crowds or wear clothing that was restrictive in any way. I started to develop this odd habit of my spinal cord pulsating followed by what feels like the flu for three or more days. It so closely resembles the flu that once it hits, all I can do is sleep. For days. This is not an exaggeration, it’s the truth. I slept through most of the winter of 2018 and have been working very slowly this year to build back what little health I had. It’s been a painful process all around. Even the simple things like cooking dinner for myself at night has at times, become impossible for me. I have spent everyday of 2018 working to get my health back to baseline. I don’t need healthy yet, I just wanted to focus on baseline. I wanted to get back to a place that looked like a simple version of normal. Waking up at a normal time, walking my dog, cooking meals, trying to do one project a day.
As I stood on top of the Mountain, I felt this wave of gratitude for the opportunity to be up there. I was grateful for a body that could handle the effort it took to be there. I was grateful that I was able to keep up with able bodied people and did not suffer from it the next day with a flare up. I was grateful that I’ve reached baseline. I even admired how even after 5 major illnesses or injuries in my life, my body is as strong as it is. I loved my body in that moment for what it is, an important part of me that I’ve been struggling with since I was young.
This Virgo New Moon is all about health. Not just health of the physical body but also health of your life, your relationships, your communities, your country and of your planet. It’s focused on health of all the places we depend on as our home. It’s not just internal health but it’s also external health. It’s about realizing places we have neglected and realizing how we want to heal them.
When I came back from the Mountain, I was also met with the reality of this New Moon. I am middle aged and my body is not bouncing back like it once did. I was hit with a wall of regret and grief. Yes, I can walk over 6 miles a day now and I do most days along with biking, but it’s taking longer for my body to look like it. I realized that my skin is losing it’s youthful glow and tenderness. I was hit with the notion that my body could and probably is, starting to sag. I was hit with the reminder that my body is starting to show all the health issues I have had in a physical way. From falling off a horse as a teenager and permanently damaging my spine and major nerves, to being bed ridden twice now for extended period of times, my body is showing it’s wounds in physical scars and changing of sizes.
Where are you starting to show your wounds? Are they physical, mental or emotional? I believe this Virgo New Moon will show us where these wounds are so we can see them and work to heal them. They won’t become invisible to us, but maybe we can allow them to heal in a way where we can still love them. What have you been hiding from the world that you are now ready to share? There’s a truth telling along with this New Moon. It’s the urge to finally be strong enough to admit we need help. Are you ready to face your eating habits and start to heal the urges that cause you to binge eat, or to restrict your diet so much that you are starving yourself? Are you ready to heal your emotional wounds from childhood that caused you to get into a relationship that is not for your highest good and probably should end? Are you ready to start working towards improving your communities so that we are all a little more generous and safe and truly do the work it takes?
“what if you hit the part of your recovery where you now have the energy to think about your appearance?” She asked me as we drove up the mountain.
We talked about how I’ve been so focused on survival that I often didn’t have the space or energy to think about how I looked to others. I could only focus on the baseline and recovery. Now that I’ve hit baseline, I have more room to worry about physical appearance and attractiveness. It’s not something I’m comfortable with or happy about. I’m now realizing that I feel like I’ve lost decades without appreciating my beauty. I’ve had so many issues come up in my body that have pushed me further and further away from it. I’m now spending my days tending to my physical health only to realize how neglected it had become. I know this was a necessity but I’m still grieving over it.
This New Moon is giving us an opportunity to set some intentions around changing these feelings and taking some forgiving and loving action. This New Moon is giving us the inspiration to set some intentions around health and wellness. It’s giving us opportunities to see both sides of the situation, so we can heal with love. It’s giving us the energy to make real changes. What can you do to help heal yourself, your community, your country or even this planet? What can you do to heal your heart so you can heal your life?
As I swam in these emotions about my body for this Ritual, Ev’Yan Whitney and her #sensualselfiechallenge appeared before me. She has been asking people to find the beauty in themselves, even when it’s hard. I see all these beautiful women and men posting photos and being so intimate about how they feel about their bodies. It’s been such a good sign from the heavens that maybe, just maybe, these feelings of frustrations and sadness can give away to feelings of beauty and sexiness. Maybe we can use this Virgo to not only get these intentions set but to also have fun with them? Maybe we can even carve a little sexy time in so we can feel good in our beautiful bodies.
A Ritual for Healing
Start this Ritual with water. I want us to use the feminine and healing energy of water. You can take a shower, a bath or drink this water but let’s honor this energy. Once you have spent time with water, grab your journal and go into nature. Spend time feeling the earth below your feet, below where you are sitting or laying down. Let the breeze wash over you. Listen to the birds and the bugs near by. Write in your journal how you are feeling. How does you body feel? Your mind? Your emotions. Write down where you want to heal and forgive. Write down easy things you can do between now and the end of the year to honor your body. Want to join me on my quest for 6 miles a day or more of walking? Want to go on a 30 day fresh food eating meal plan to give your body a break before the holidays? Want to honor your body by loving it, even if it is a size that society does not approve of? Are you ready to start therapy to finally address issues that are making your life harder than it needs to be? Write all these idea’s down so you can see what the themes are. Set your intentions around these ideas that are small and easy. Actions you know you will take to help manifest your intentions.
Take time to be present in your body. Feel love for wherever you are right now. Feel love for the scars, the pains and the reality that we are only here for a finite amount of time. Let’s honor our bodies, our communities and our earth. As on ode to the #sensualselfiechallenge, follow Ev’Yan Whitney on Instagram and sign up for her events and start now. Take a beautiful selfie of yourself this week. Send it to someone special or post it online. Spend time seeing the beauty of who you are, inside and out.
I will be working on healing my body and how I see it. I will setting intentions around movement, eating, caring for my body as well as setting intentions for laughing more, enjoying my body more and working towards being able to be more able bodied than before. I will also be working on seeing myself as sexy and beautiful. I’m not yet ready for the Sensual Selfie Challenge but this time next year, I full intend to sign up for it. I get a whole year to practice noticing my beauty and showing it off. I get a year to practice Rituals that will help me ease into this sensual way of life.
This week let’s set some intentions around healing and self love. Let’s acknowledge what needs to be healed so we can forgive and work to move forward towards love.
Full Moon in Pisces
This past week I had one of the best nights that I have had in a long time. I went out with a new friend to a pop-up restaurant in Seattle, but it wasn’t the food that made the night memorable; it was the connections that happened. This friend is somewhat new to my world and it was the first time we hung-out together alone, just the two of us. The conversation flowed along with the wine, and we laughed and talked about where we are in our lives. As fate would have it, we ended up making a new friend. It all happened so easily, so peacefully, so perfectly. The three of us talked into the early hours of the morning, and what I loved best was that all three of us were open. We were open to conversation, open to spending time together, open to keeping our phones off the table and out of sight. We laughed, shared stories, and were present.
Contrasting this, last night as I was walking under the light of a moon turned red by smoke coming into the city, I realized I’ve also been hearing about rejection a lot this week. Not huge displays of obvious rejection, but stories about rejections like those paper cuts that over time, become real wounds. These stories are about how we reject someone without even realizing it; how our own agendas become more important than being present with someone who wants to connect. These two different experiences made me realize that the theme of this Full Moon is connection. Can we connect with people, hold our boundaries and not be self-centered in our lives? Can we spend time with another person doing something they want to do and feel joy about it? Can we make the decision to spend time with someone we love, even if it means you delaying a pressing chore for one more day? How can we learn that to help people feel loved, we need to be present for them? Just as we need someone to show up for us at various points in our lives.
Connection in this hyper-world we live in also requires slowing down. Can we take this Full Moon to slow down and prepare for the Fall? Can we let go of the need to control everything and just be there for other people? Can we put our phones away? Can we take an extra five minutes in our day to chat with that person in the coffee line? Can we have dinner with a stranger and simply allow the connection to flow? How about if we make a date with ourselves to just allow this summer to work its magic while we take a walk in nature? Let’s just allow people to cancel plans if they need too, knowing the evening will be perfect. Our agenda does not need to override the Universe or Fate. Our personal plans can flow like a river.
A Ritual for Connection
This week take some time to just connect with someone. If that doesn’t feel right or comfortable, take some time to connect with yourself. Put the computer, phone and tablet away. There’s no need for text messages, phone calls or photographs. We want to use this time to connect with what’s around us, including events, people, and places in and around our reality.
When you are ready, take out your journal and just write. Write down where you are connecting and what places you feel a need to reconnect. Sometimes reconnection is not possible because of distance; either emotional or physical. How can you take this energy to reconnect and turn it inward? Reconnect with your spirit. What would this reconnection look like? Are there places in your life where you would like to connect with newness? Can you imagine a world where you can take vacations with friends and not worry about money? Can you imagine a world where someone you find interesting or attractive notices you and wants to connect as well? Can you imagine connecting with your creative e spirit and getting over that writer’s block? Write all of this down. Connection can mean so much. We want to use this Full Moon to explore connections in the sensitive fashion that the Pisces sign calls for. Let’s seek sensitive, creative connection.
Let’s use our imagination and words to connect with the Universe this week.
Weekly Energy Ritual
I realize things may feel like a whirlwind for many of you right now. This eclipse and the retrogrades have shown us where we need to heal, let go, grow, slow down, and, most importantly, need to allow the magic to happen. I know it’s exhausting so as we go into this week let’s give ourselves to permission to practice self-care. We do this because when we start to love ourselves and truly take care of ourselves, Venus and her beautiful energy is there to pick us up and give us some guidance toward the next step.
As you know, I’ve been dealing with this change energy for months. I have fought it though, fought to hold on for too long and fought to keep change at bay. Now I am standing here with open arms ready to embrace these changes. I’m starting to see Venus in everything, that beauty that comes from the feminine. I’m also dreaming again for the first time in years. I’m ready to believe that it is acceptable for me to dream again because I’ve created space for a new way of living to manifest. So along with opening up to love in my life, embracing the beauty of Mother Nature and making changes to take care of her and not neglect her; I’m also opening up to rebuilding what my vision of Ritual Coaching is.
Business Insider magazine recently published an article that, though it had a regrettable subject (weight loss), was actually all about the importance of Rituals and how they can improve our lives. Small changes can lead to big Magic (or, according to the article, to pounds lost). Take out the click bait theme and what you have is an article written to show the power of Rituals.
I’m coming out of this eclipse dedicated to living the life of a Ritual Coach. I will be someone that believes in small steps to create big changes. I will be someone that is not only helping others but also, changing their own lives. Someone aware that the world is much bigger than we realize.
I want to continue to see where this path takes me because if it is anything like my dreams have been over this Eclipse weekend, it will be beautiful, exciting, grounded and life-changing.
This week, as part of my heart-opening, I was more empathetic. Instead of getting upset with the kid walking his dog but not picking up after it, I opted to watch how embarrassed he was while he walked away. I thought that maybe he had forgotten a bag and didn’t know what to do. I remembered in my early dog-owning years having this same thing happen. So instead of being annoyed and ignoring it, I picked up after him. I lovingly did this because the older neighbor doesn’t need to worry about her friends stepping in it. I did this because I love where I live and I want to believe that people will grow and become responsible.
I truly believe that we are all shifting with these energetic changes. I feel we are growing up and realizing things need to change. We are doing this in our national sphere, in our communities and also in our lives. Where I once chose anger, I now choose love. Where I once relied on my ego to protect me, I now rely on an open heart and loving embrace to heal me. Where once I didn’t understand or like something, I am now open to the idea that the world is larger than just me. Where I once might have hated myself, I now love myself enough to believe in the Divine.
All of these changes require self-care and rest. They require time and small steps. They require Rituals and time. Most of all they required rest.
So this week, let’s rest. Let’s integrate all the changes. Let’s not try to name them or understand them yet. Let’s just allow them to grow and become stronger. Let’s feed them with nutrients of love and care.
Let’s take walks with those we love, talking all about our lives. Connecting and laughing while sharing our dreams. Let’s take ourselves out for a solo date night. Does it include being in nature or sitting at a beach? Let’s cook wonderful meals for those we love. Let’s kiss our loved one and thank them for joining us on this adventure. Let’s give our dreams the same love we give others. Let’s give ourselves a break and extend that energy to those we don’t know.
A Ritual to Give Yourself a Break
This week just rest, love and dream. Allow the energy to build back up. Allow yourself to let go of what needs to be let go of and allow yourself to chose love over anger. Allow yourself to just rest and feel good about what’s coming next because it’s going to be juicy and love-filled.
This week allow yourself to believe that you can be loved by someone who can give you the world.
I am spending a lot of time watching the world these days. I find myself thinking, ‘what interesting times we are living in’. It seems like things are turning inside out for so many people and sometimes they may be asking themselves if all this turmoil of change is worth it, is a different life something worth fighting for, and am I ready for change? Some do this work quietly and peacefully, welcoming changes with a hug. These people are turning their lives into a more authentic place in which they can shine. They are embracing these changes they see because they know they are based in health and wellbeing. What side of the road are you on?
I’m also aware of significant mother-wound work being done on a personal and universal level. Can this wound that has been open for millennia be healed to create a world where women are equal? Can we heal this wound and extend the work to the less fortunate and disadvantaged? Can we extend this work to include everyone wherever possible? Even if it means including ourselves?
I’ve returned to the West Coast after a visit back East and after the trip, I realize that I miss the East Coast in a way I would not have thought possible. It feels good to have awoken that memory of dreams I had while living there. There’s something about the East Coast that feels to be very much a part of my core being. It’s my maternal coast and after many years of running, I feel ready to embrace it. The heat, the humidity, the lush greens and the softness.
My heart has been opening and softening as I use the summer to work on my intentions around love. As I continue to lean into my new health requirements and new future, I’m softening to the idea of family and connection. I find myself yearning for dinners with family and friends. For conversation and a sense of community. I’m also getting a better sense of what I would like in my connections in life. What does life look like when I am really present to someone else? For so long I thought I had to chase a career goal but now I wonder, what would life look like if I were to cherish relationships the way I cherished career goals? I find myself opening up to people about this change. I am putting my phone down and really spending time with people. I’m deep diving into studying relationships and ways to be emotionally healthy, and feeling the shifts happening in my Universe because of my intentions around bringing more love into my life. Love and Venus are everywhere for me right now, in the flower beds I pass on my daily walk, in my nephew’s eyes as we play in the backyard, and in my old dog’s snuggles after a long evening stroll. It’s a daily occurrence at the moment and very much acknowledged as the reward it is.
Where are you headed as we move into our final Eclipse with so many planets in Retrograde. Where are you seeing changes? Where are you in answering the Universe’s question of “Is this what you really want?” Do you really want to be in a relationship that causes more pain than good? Do you really want to be on autopilot for the rest of your life? Do you really want to hold onto that pain and anger for another 20 years or are you ready to let go?
I am so proud of those people that are doing the work right now. The ones that are faced with changes for the first time, the ones that are barely holding on but not giving up and the ones that have watched their lives turned upside down. I am so proud of you doing this work on a daily basis to survive. The eclipse this week will help settle things down but there are also temptations possible with this eclipse. It’s easy to ignore the signs when the Universe is at the door asking you to change in a way that your ego does not want you too. Sometimes we ignore the signs because the temptation is louder. Is there any place in your life that you are avoiding?
For me, these eclipses have been slow. I’ve been able to support others because the life-alternating energy that came with these eclipses is something I have been dealing with for a while. So I’ve been listening to the Universe as it encourages requests me life to love more, open my heart more, and emotionally connect with people more. I’m asked to be present and grateful. I’ve been giving time and energy to people who have supported me in the past and now need some attention. I find myself inspired by people in a new way. I’ve been learning a lot over this eclipse season about all kinds of relationships. I’ve been learning about emotional intimacy from the man that makes me feel like I sparkle and it’s changing how I interact with this world. It’s a soft and love-filled time for me right now.
A Ritual for Integration
What has this eclipse season taught you?
We want to use this Ritual to understand better what the eclipse summer has taught us. Over the last six to eight weeks, what has changed in your world? What messages have you received? What life changes have happened?
Pick a time when you can have thirty minutes to an hour to just think, write, make a cup of tea and relax by yourself. I suggest you not start the clock until all materials are gathered and you are ready mentally, physically and emotionally. Make yourself a cup of tea. Re-arrange your altar or build one on your desk to look at while you write in your journal about what you learned this summer. Once you are settled and you have done the busy work of preparing to start the Ritual, light a candle next to your journal and start writing.
The Summer of 2018 has taught me . . . . . . . .
The answers will come in positive and negatives. You have learned what you wanted just as much as you have learned what you wish you hadn’t. Take the time with this Ritual to write it all down. We want to document what’s been happening so we can finish up the work as we move towards the end of the year. The eclipse season may have brought around big life changes, so, how do you want to move forward with these changes? Or maybe your eclipse season has been like mine, slow and steady. A better sense of self and the life I want to live. Closer connections to family and friends, a place in my heart for love and a readiness to practice what I have been learning.
Write down all these lessons. Spend whatever time you need. Remember to breathe through this work, as some burdensome feelings are likely to come up.
Now set the intention for how you want to integrate all these lessons.
It’s a wonderful New Moon for integration and intention settling.
Are you ready to finally see love when it is standing in front of you? Are you ready to realize you have the power and strength to start your own company? Are you ready to become the parent you always needed, not the one you had? Are you ready to forgive - knowing that love is healthier than anger? Set the intentions for what you are ready for. Set the intentions for the person you are becoming as a result of this work and this eclipse season. Set the intention for love.
Full Moon Eclipse in Aquarius
There’s an energy purge going on with this Full Moon Eclipse. It may be as big as a volcano or perhaps you will just have rumbles; but we are all getting rid of something. We are letting go of a wide variety of things. Things being tossed could include emotions, bad habits, or old dreams that no longer apply. We are making room on a specific energy level to allow space for healing. Let’s harness this energy to help heal our wounds as a country, wounds in our communities, family wounds and personal wounds. Let’s allow for this transformation to help us propel towards a healthier future.
I have returned to the East Coast – my maternal coast. The part of my history that centers around my mother’s family and my mother wound. Eight months ago I didn’t think I would ever make this trip again, and yet, here I am. It’s been surprisingly easy and healing. I am having conversations that I never thought I would ever be able to have and experience an ease around them. I see things so differently now after the last six months of healing. I’m here with a new energy. I am no longer rushing through my emotions or hiding them. I feel relaxed in my skin for the first time ever. Sickness will do that to a person. It can bring them to a place where there is no choice but to truly be yourself in whatever form that takes. That’s how I see this Full Moon energy manifesting. We are being asked to truly be ourselves in a place in our lives, in whatever form that takes. It could be explosive if that is what is needed or it could be a small rumble; noticeable but also quick and light. We are making room for our desires to step forward.
The heat of this region is comforting. Heat so thick it sinks into the bones. I find it healing and even soothing. It becomes part of you. It’s one of those things you don’t realize you miss until you come back after time away and you are reminded of the Joy and Dreams that were born in this air. Born in this humidity and heat.
I walk late at night to avoid the sting of the sun. It’s the time of lighting bugs, which appear in the early evening and disappear into the deep night. It’s quiet and the only sounds are bugs and the breeze. I walk to heal my body. I walk to release the heat of the day. I walk because it helps balance my emotions. I walk to talk to La Luna and tell her of what I’m ready to let go of and what I would like in it’s place. I talk about realities of my earthly world. Family members you never could imagine living without, suddenly taken ill in a way that requires help and an eventual good bye combined with baby showers and family birthdays. I marvel at the circular reality of life.
What phase of the cycle are you in? Is it an explosion or a small rumble? Are you witnessing both the endings and the beginnings? Noticing the space where we experience all phases of the life cycle just like we notice and experience the Moon cycle. What needs your attention right now?
Ritual for a Full Moon Eclipse
While we are still in retrograde and with Eclipse season happening, let’s continue to rest and take care of ourselves. Can we slow down enough this week to notice what we are truly feeling? How can we notice our memories and process them? There is so much power in our stories, how can we use that power to move forward? I suggest spending some time walking this week; enjoying the slower pace of a nice evening walk. Notice the details of not only what you are seeing, but also, what you are feeling. Does this walk remind you of being younger and going to visit friends after school? Does the walk help you to remember the time you lived in a big city and walked everywhere? Do you think of the two neighborhood couples that used to meet every night in the early evening and walk together? The wives in front, chatting away while the husbands were behind them talking about the days events. What comes up from this Ritual walk? Write down your feelings; all of them that you might have. From resistance of doing such a simple ritual to excitement over how good it feels to be outside walking. Notice where your mind goes during this event. Notice where your cellular memory takes you.
Because so many planets are in retrograde, we don’t want to push our agenda yet. It would be futile at the moment. We need to use this time to take a break, process what needs to come up and to let go. Use this week to get out in Nature. To hear nothing but the birds and the breeze. Move your body to release and process. After your walk, enjoy a good book and glass of wine while allowing your body and mind a break. Work on being so present that you could fill a whole page in your journal about how you feel, right in this moment. Take a breath and relax.
A Ritual to Feel
We have a potent New Moon in front of us and thanks to Cancer’s emotionally-focused power, we will be feeling the whole rainbow of emotions. If harnessed correctly, we will be able to move through these emotions and not get stuck in the most painful ones.
Over the last week my body has felt relaxed, strong and healthy. I’ve added bike riding into my daily quest for movement. I’ve had a wonderful week of early morning bike rides with the birds. I live in the neighborhood I grew up in and every day pass by homes I’ve known for decades being torn down, to be replaced by giant modern houses. None of these match my beautiful neighborhood. Some of the older homes I admire actually look as if they are part of the natural landscape, as if they were built to blend in with the surroundings. They may not have looked like the house next door to them, but they were clearly designed with their environment in mind. They seem to be to be odes to the beauty of the landscape of our city; the water, the mountains, and the spirit. Some of the new houses seem horrendous, imposing on, not reflecting, the beauty around them, blocking out views that previously belonged to everyone. They look like giant boxes built with little interest or concern for those that have to live near them; built so high, so fast and so cheaply that some that have been up for only a year are starting to show the effects of the months of rain this city endures. There are cracks beginning to show and seams suddenly appearing along with the realization that it may have been built without care. And now we have to endure this ugly beast for many years to come.
I’ve been feeling the rainbow of emotions as I watch these lifecycles appear. This city I once loved is changing. This country I once loved is changing. This world I once loved is changing. This life I once loved is changing.
I’ve been feeling all the emotions at once as I bike around my neighborhood. My evening rides usually include my father. We haven’t ridden bikes together since I was a kid but as my father ages, I accept the need to keep him moving. We ride around the park he grew up sneaking into as a kid because it was an army base. He points out buildings and fields and tells me stories of his boyhood. The Dragonflies hover overhead, almost as if they are listening. We glide along paths at dusk talking about how much fun the new electric bikes are, and I realize there are whole other memories that come up when I ride at night for me. It’s less about where exactly we are and what we are doing and more about memories stored deep within my cells.
I have memories of a childhood spent between the East Coast and West Coast, including memories of bike rides taken in cow fields during my weekend adventures at the country home my step-dad had on Civil War battlegrounds in Virginia. These are magical memories of spending time with someone that was truly an angel put in my life to help me. So, many feelings all are swelling up this week but I’m trying – as you should – to not get caught up in them. They are beautiful, sad, funny, whimsical memories and they are all wonderful. The thing we want to realize is that this New Moon Solar Eclipse will present multi-dimensional events and we want to be aware of this and learn to process and work through them. The good ones and the more challenging ones. We want to feel all the emotions associated with this New Moon but not get stuck on one specific part of it.
It may be easier said than done because this New Moon is so emotionally-charged. What feels good will really feel good and what feel like discomfort, will feel like a stone in your shoe. If we can focus on just allowing the emotions to come up, identify, feel and then release them, we can then harness the energy of this New Moon. Let’s use this energy to process and let go so that we can make room to keep moving forward. The one thing we don’t want with this New Moon is to let ourselves get stuck on any one emotion. Cancer sign events are meant to remind us that we are here to feel things and to remember to have empathy towards others. Crabs bite but they also feed us.
One thing I am personally doing this week is giving myself a lot of space. I’ve cut down on my plans and my social media use. I’ve been leaving the phone on another floor. I’ve been listening to recorded sounds of nature or instrumental classical music. I’m treating this week like a stay-cation. Surrounded by comfort items and movement. I’ve been reading, writing, walking and cleaning but with no urgency attached. If I desire a scoop of locally-made ice cream, I’m taking myself out for one. If I desire a mid-day three mile walk. I’m doing it. I’m giving myself what I need during this New Moon ramp up.
A Ritual to Feel
This one is simple. Feel the emotions this week. Identify them. Talk to them if needed. Then, let them go on their way. Our reality is in this present moment. And if we can keep ourselves in the present moment, we can learn balance. We can learn peace. We can learn about life and death.
Though this city is changing, it’s still part of my journey.
Though our Country is struggling, it is part of our journey.
Though we maybe scared right now, it is part of our journey.
Let’s move through the emotions so that we can feel everything.
Though this city is changing, I wouldn’t want to be any place else.
Though this country is struggling, I have hope for the future.
Though I maybe scared, if I focus on the present, I realize my natural state is peace.
Take time this week to just allow; allow there to be room for fun, for cleaning, for cooking, for movement. Allow yourself the space to feel the emotions and allow yourself to have moments where you just relax and give yourself a break from feeling. Allow for space this week so that you are not part of someone’s drama, pain or struggle. Allow for yourself to process your own emotions so you are not giving them to others to work on. Allow for yourself to be human this week; working through the bad times so you can appreciate the good ones.
A Ritual for Cleaning
This week I’ve been cleaning; cleaning the house, clearing out my mind, and cleaning out memories. I didn’t realize until after the Full Moon that cleaning is the energy we will be working with this week as we move into retrograde season. What can you clean out of your life?
This energy is very different than the great purge at the beginning of the year. This cleaning isn’t about big gestures, it’s all about maintaining and appreciating. It concerns putting value on your time and space. Some of us will be using this energy to stand up for what we believe in, using our voices in a new and louder way, keeping more focused on the vision for our future. Some of us will bring support where we can, but will also be using this energy to clean out their health stories to brighten the physical part of their future. Is it time to start eating a healthier diet and to really give yourself time to listen to your body and what it needs? Is it time to clean out your attention list or cut down on social media?
The other theme I notice about this energy is how connected it is to earth energy. We are coming into the height of the summer. Plants in the Northern Hemisphere are responding to the heat. Animals are out enjoying the warmth of the sun and are no longer in hibernation mode. Last week I mentioned that if you saw a feather, it just might be a sign of Magic. Since writing that, I have seen multiple feathers on a daily basis. At first I didn’t realize it but by the end of the week I was laughing. The Universe didn’t just deliver, it delivered 6 feathers in one place.
In my garden the birds are playing, chirping up a storm and using my cat’s water bowl to bathe in. They are taking advantage of this rainy day to collect worms. They are connecting me to nature, slowing me down so I can catch the hummingbird feeding before it takes off to another flower at someone else’s house. The birds and other creatures are slowing me down enough to see feathers on the sidewalk, in the grass, under trees. They are slowing me down so that I can hear the hawk before the crows realize he is close. They are flying around me as I chat with my neighbors, getting to know people that I have lived near for years but never slowed down enough to talk too.
As we use this retrograde energy to slow down, we wake to realize that there are parts of our world we need to change and that communities are more important than ever. How can we use this energy to create a better place, for everyone? How can we start to help and support connecting, growing and working together? We all have a part in our ever-changing universe, so how can we best work together to organize and do better?
A Ritual for Cleaning
Let’s start small, maybe a bookcase, a drawer, or even just a bag. Can you take a place or thing you love and spruce it up? This will help to build on the energy. You can set the timer if you want, or listen to a piece of classical music piece that is longer in length to keep track of time. Or, you can allow yourself to get lost in cleaning and really take the time to notice each piece and decide its future. We just want to do something that moves us, and the things, possessions, objects, or baggage around us, a bit. Maybe it’s gardening a certain area of your garden where you want to put a bird bath, or a statue, or a new plant? We want to use the time cleaning to come back into our bodies and work on being mindful. While you’re cleaning, what are you thinking about? How does your body feel? What is coming up in terms of messages for you?
Next take out your journal and write down the areas you might want to concentrate on next. Is it a certain room in the house that needs to be turned into your new office so you can relax a little more and keep you happy enough to write? Are you going to take advantage of the beautiful fresh produce available now and start eating in a way that makes you feel better? Are you ready to just unplug from technology and go off the grid to find that missing piece you have been looking for; that pleasure in silence that only happens when you are in the middle of it? Are you ready to take bigger action in helping to lead us towards a better future? Something is asking us to change; what is it? Cleaning is change, it is improving your surroundings, it is letting go of emotions, and it is finding the courage to keep going. Dedicating time to cleaning, in whatever form it takes, is dedicating time to slow down and focus on something. It’s doing the work to improve your life and thus, improve the surroundings for others.
Take your time with this Ritual. We are working with Slow Magic. It’s not about grand gestures, it’s about Slow Magic making real change. This is about changing and cleaning our surroundings on a deep level. Use the Earth Energy to help keep you centered and grounded. We are moving slow right now and cleaning as we go.
A Ritual for the Full Stop
I am half way through my ‘Full-Stop’ year and I cannot say it’s my favorite experiment. The idea of slowing your life down, almost to a complete halt, sounds easy in theory. I mean, slowing down means doing less, right? In reality, it has been a winding road, with several sharp turns, a few calm spots and a whole lot of altitude. I am six months into this and I can say in all honesty, it has not been easy. It is, however, the one that is changing the course of my life. For better, or worse.
One part of this experience seems to involve bird magic. I never noticed until this summer how attractive my garden is to birds. The more time I spend in the yard, the friendlier these creatures are becoming with me. I have a sweet hummingbird that comes to my deck to say good morning once I am sitting there with my tea. Today he was singing to me from the railing. I also noticed a healthy-sized robin running around my yard with a bunch of worms in its mouth, trying to scope out how friendly I am. I feel this shift in my garden after a hard rain brought new life to the plants. I then realized that this is similar to the celestial energy we are working with this week. Shifts are happening in our lives because of slow downs, disappointments, and frustrations or just plain exhaustion. There are planets starting to go retrograde and giving some big shifts but that doesn’t necessarily mean doom and gloom. It doesn’t mean we need to give up, it just means we need to slow down and notice what is changing. I would have never have noticed my sweet hummingbird or mama robin if I had not stopped and slowed down enough to notice their routines. I can even see this ‘Full Stop’ extending into other areas of my life.
I can say that the ‘Full Stop’ Ritual is one of the longest and most detailed journeys that I have ever been on. It goes against everything that our society seems to say is right. It’s the journey that will be questioned, time and time again. It’s the journey I forever want to take. It’s slowing down your life so much that mindfulness becomes your destination. It’s about addressing the exhaustion, confusion and aches. It’s about feeding the body, mind and spirit. It’s concerned with nurturing your needs on all levels. This is a powerful Ritual that will produce deep changes.
It is also a Ritual that could, and probably should, be done in small steps. The energy of this week will be similar. Can we pace our goals so we don’t get burned-out and lash out? Can we slow down enough in our energy that even our loftiest dream or block, will seem approachable? Can we allow the Universe to share its magic while at the same time notice what’s happening around us. This Full Moon can be used to create space for newness’ new jobs, new love, new people, and new ways of enjoying things. To allow for this energy of newness, we must slow down to find the magic. We must come back into our bodies and heal. We must connect with our communities to grow. We must allow for life to move forward, even in the slow times.
A Ritual for a Full Stop
You can do this for an hour, a day, a week or year, or forever. It’s size is dependent on you. Where in your life do you need to do a full stop? This need is deeper than your responsibilities or lifestyle. Where do you need a little Slow Down magic and space? Where do you need to make deep changes? Slowing down can be good. It allows you to notice yourself and your surroundings in a different light. It makes space for you to breathe, to create, to manifest. Decide what you need. Do you need just a day to give yourself a time to relax, to eat healthy and rest? Do you want to leave your phone at home so you can stay present on your adventure? Or do you have a longer-term need? Maybe it’s time to take a full stop from dating to just enjoy your summer? How about nothing but friend-dates this summer? Perhaps it would be nothing but focusing on what makes you happy, be they pool parties, movie nights, or family picnics. How about a couple of weekend adventures thrown in. Coming to a full stop will allow for these new fun events. Focus on being present with friends and family, smiling and enjoying your time together. Or maybe you are at a place like me; a full stop to everything. Maybe your body is calling out for some healing and attention so loudly that all you can do is come to a Full Stop to recover. What is it you need?
Write this need in your journal. What does it look like? Add as many details as you can. Start to build out the vision of this need. Maybe you just need a night to journal and get in touch with yourself. Carve out time to do this work. It’s the perfect Full Moon for creating this vision.
I would burn some incense while working on this Ritual if you can. We want to honor the birds with some air magic since they have showing up lately. If you find a feather…… just know it’s Magic.