I am so sorry for the silence. My intention for 2019 has been all about healing and the Universe heard me. Starting in January, I started to feel ill. It wasn’t a sudden illness, but it was related to an issue I had been ignoring for a couple of years while I focused on other health issues. However, with the energy of the New Year, I became aware that it was time to deal with it and I give credit to my intuition for helping me address the issue before more invasive, emergency, surgery was needed. I realized that in order for me to continue on my road to health, it was time to undergo my fourth surgery in as many years. I put off my Ritual Dinners and Moon Rituals these last few months to put all my energy towards healing.
I am now a month out from surgery and feeling better every day. My body is responding well to the adjustments made since then. I am slowing down some on Ritual Dinners for the rest of the year as I don’t feel my body is ready for big projects. I need to spend a little more time understanding my body before I can start cooking again.
There is a part of me that feels I may have Ritual Coach-ed myself out of Ritual Coach. I have been doing these rituals along with everyone and once again, I see myself creating a new story built from these intentions. I still desire to see what is next in my story and there is a glimmer, maybe more of an outline derived from a dream I have had since in high school. I understand though that the way I saw this idea in my youth isn’t the way it will manifest in adulthood. Sometimes we must get creative and be flexible with our dreams because the road we want to take is not available. Since becoming ill last year, I have been setting the intention to figure out a way to live that would allow me to take care of myself and still work. I am not ready to give up on working since I do love being productive. So, I have spent the last few years setting the intention of being open to new way of living.
As the winter started to melt and thaw into spring, my dream started to coalesce.
I don’t want to go into heaps of detail here, but this dream combines my skills from the tech world with my love of cooking and traveling. It allows me to focus on and help other people grow their businesses while doing something I love. And it is something I can do from any location. This was the most important part of my new story since I have realized that my body can not handle being in a kitchen all day or sitting at a desk all day. I need to be able to give my body what it needs at any given moment.
I am not giving up on Ritual Coaching since I love the work we do together, this will merely be another part of the story. Ritual Coaching is the story. Ritual Coach came to me at a time right before I got sick and helped me to make it through the trauma of the last few years where I had to let go of everything connected to my ego, my career and my body. I needed to be a little less frequent in my rituals since my body is in charge of things at the moment. Each ritual takes energy that some days I just don’t have to spare. I will continue to do rituals and when inspiration hits, I will share them. At the moment, I need a little more space to see where this new intention will take me.
A Ritual for Self-Care
Recently I have been doing deep work around my blocks concerning wealth, abundance and money. This is the perfect topic for Taurus season. Every Taurus I know is incredibly successful and abundant. It is one of my favorite signs. I love the energy put towards this form of security. I have been inspired to comb through my own history around intentions, manifesting and abundance to notice places where I had blocks I didn’t even realize. I have been listening to books on tape about women and wealth. I even have been playing meditation CDS at night while I sleep to help find and clear my blocks. So far, it has been life changing. I am starting to see patterns and places where I am ready to take care of myself, to love myself and to take care of myself. I have a lot I want to do with my time left on earth and moving into a relationship with my blocks and shadow issues where they have less power is going to help me live my dreams.
What places are you have been neglecting? Are your bills unopened? Do you dread the doctor because you don’t want to deal with your health issue? Are you avoiding asking for a promotion at work because advocating for yourself is hard? Find those places where something is uncomfortable and let’s do a ritual around it to help make it easier to take the next step.
I highly recommend finding a guided mediation concerning the issue you are trying to address. If you have to, do a search on YouTube. I promise there will be something. The other day I even found one for ending video game and phone addictions. Listen to a couple and find one or two that you resonate to. I also recommend affirmation tracks. These don’t require you to meditate and can be listened to while driving or working. Along with finding some meditation tracks, and affirmation tracks, see if you can find one or two books on the topic you are ready to tackle. It could be money, empowerment, relationships or simply self-care. Download these books and listen to them while cleaning, walking, working out or commuting. Better yet, check them out from a library and set aside time for comfortable study. I spent Sunday morning cleaning my kitchen while listening to a book about money. I had it on in the background so I didn’t really hear it but I believe I absorbed lots from it. As I was washing the kitchen floor, I was thinking about growing up and some of lessons I learned about money. How something so simple like having a savings account could become a traumatic situation when its existence was used in a divisive and cruel way by a family member. At this point in life senior class pictures may not look like that big of deal but this action led me to a sense of confusion and shame about money. I began to peel away at my block to realize that what happened when I was a teenager has set the stage many weird decisions.
The work hasn’t all been this level. I also found some subliminal messaging CD’s that I have been playing at night. This way my brain can have a break from words and I can just relax knowing that I am still working on changing the relationships I have with my blocks. As a bonus, I noticed I wake up in a much better mood when I listen to the CD’s,
What issues are you ready to address? Even if it is just finding one affirmation track you can listen too while driving to work, let’s set the intention to do for a whole month. Don’t push yourself that life will change super quickly. This is just about working slowly to change your thoughts and your energy. We aren’t trying to manifest material items or soulmates. Instead we are working to identify and release internal blocks that could be affecting how we live our lives. Commit to this simple ritual for the next 30 days and let go of negative feelings if you miss a day. I truly believe one night of subliminal messages is better than nothing.
Be open to what comes up for you. What are you noticing about how you interact with the world? Are you writing your own affirmations to say to yourself? Are you open to changing your thoughts and your energy? Do you find yourself ready to make some physical changes or are you still in the testing-the-waters state? Wherever you are is perfect. We just want to keep our minds open to change and releasing our internal blocks.
I find myself more and more grateful for my journey as I heal and start to do this work. I am replacing my old and outdated thinking with new possibilities and intentions. I love Ritual Coaching and will continue to do it, but will continue to work on the dream coming true. Food has been such a huge part of my path back to health and I want to share the resources that have gotten me to this blissed-out and strong place. I find myself ready to tackle programming in my mind that is outdated and interfering with my new intentions and vision of my future. I find myself ready to take the plunge into doing some deeper work.
Please let me know what area you want to work on and how it’s going. If you need any help or suggestions for the audio part of the ritual, just let me know. I firmly believe that doing this work slowly and with intention will help us all.